Perfectly Lonely.

And perfectly happy.
Surprised?
Well, after a month of moping and random outbreak of water-works, I took a break. Literally.
And did all the things that I loved to do(and LOADS of new things)...and guess what, I feel better...WAY BETTER!
I even got a new tattoo...though it hurt quite a bit, on this one.
And a new GAP hoodie.(I am NOT showing off =p)
And considering Christmas is almost around the corner, I needed to cheer up and fast.
So I did loads of stuff....like Bake awesome cakes and since I happen to be in an AWESOME mood, I'll write the recipe of the cake here, so I could share my joy around!! This cake is really easy to make and can be made in less than half an hour(though the cooling off takes a little time.)

Single-Layered Chocolate and Nut Cake:

Ingredients:
1 and one-fourth cup unsalted butter, softened.
2 cups sugar.
6 eggs.
2 and two-thirds cup all purpose flour.
6 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder.
2 teaspoon vanilla extract.
1/2 cup boiling water.

For frosting/icing.
Half a slab of dark cooking chocolate.
Pillsbury Chocolate frosting.
Icing sugar.
Assorted nuts(preferably, almonds)

Steps to make:
1) Grind the sugar into powder using a mixer/grinder. Not to the softened butter add the sugar until the butter has completely melted into the sugar.

2)Now to the sugar-butter mixture, add one egg at a time. Keep mixing as the eggs are being added into the mixture.
3)Now in a high edged contained, add the flour, cocoa powder and baking powder and mix it well so that the ingredients get mixed well. Add the vanilla extract as well.
4)Now add this flour and other mix into the sugar-butter-egg batter. Keep beating the batter as you keep adding the flour mix since if not mixed well the flour could form dollops. Mix it well so that a thick paste is formed.

5)Now add half-cup of boiling water into the mix. Keep mixing as the water is added. This is actually not mentioned in most recipes. This was told to me by a grandmother, who said that if you add water to this mixture, it helps the batter to breathe.

 Keep the mix aside for a while to let it settle.

6)In the mean-time, grab the container in which you want the baking to be done. Since I bake the cake in a Microwave Oven, I use one of those hard plastic Microwave bowls. An aluminum container could be used as well. So now, grease the container that is going to be used with butter. A better way is to use the paper that comes with Amul butter.
7)Once the container is greased, pour the mixture in it and let it settle. Once that's done, put it in the microwave/owen without adding the lid. Since I have a Grill Microwave, I put it on 100 degrees for about 7 minutes.
8)After it's done, put either a toothpick or a knife and make an incision to check if the cake had baked. If there is batter stuck on the knife once you get it out, again bake it for about 2 minutes. Otherwise take it out for it to be cool.
9)Once it's remotely cooled, cut it into half horizontally(duh!) from the centre(you can cut it into three pieces as well, if you want to make a double layer cake.)
10)Then put it aside to cool more.

For frosting/icing.
1)Use the Pillsbury icing chocolate first. Take a spatula and take the chocolate paste and put in on the halves of the cake that had been cut. Put it nicely and evenly.

1)Take the slab of cooking dark chocolate and break it into half. Put half of this in a small bowl.
2)For melting the chocolate, people generally use several methods, but the most efficient method remains the double boiler(it was actually suggested to me by a friend, who almost saved my cake). Most Indian kitchens have the Kadai or some other fairly large vessel. Or use a deep bottom vessel and fill it with water. Get the water to boil. Now put the bowl containing the chocolate on it or hold it with a Shaaraashi(I have no clue what it's called in english...tongs?!) until the chocolate starts melting.

Take a spoon and keep smashing the already softened chocolate, till it has turned into a smooth chocolate paste.

3)Once the chocolate is melted take it out of the gas and  take it to your cake immediately and slowly pour it over your cake and smoothen it, so that the chocolate covers your cake completely. Put it properly on all sides and smoothen it up.

4)Keep it to the side, until it's all cool. Then add freshly chopped almonds on top as garnish. Then put it inside the freezer for ten minutes so that the chocolate freezes a bit. 

5)Now your Single-Layered Chocolate Cake it ready to be served.

This cake has impressed loads of people and my culinary skills have improved vastly. And I would like to thnak mopey November for it all!!

Because I'm Stupid....

....and  too sleepy to come up with anything remotely nice or interesting and will never have the guts to say what i write out loud or to the one concerned or brave enough to message the one in context I will post it up here:
"There is something I have been meaning to tell you for quite sometime now...I don't know how to put it properly...even though I have rehearsed it in my mind a thousand times, I still can't frame it well.
Oh well, here goes nothing....I Like You. 
A lot. 
There, that felt better...much. 
It felt like a major block has been lifted from my heart. 
I feel like this one burden that was on my shoulders has been eased. 
The thing that was eating me up, wont anymore. 
I feel better. 
I don't want you to respond, cause i know you won't. 
What you would say would shatter me, my self-pride.
I don't expect you to either, because it's too good to be true...yet I still wanted to tell it to you. 
I hope it didn't freak you out...much. 
I hope it wont be awkward between us anymore, since you and I are friends. 
I hope it won't be awkward...much.
Oh well, now that it's said and done, what's up?"


P.S this is complete fact...i had written a similar message and almost sent it to someone(the one-who-cannot-be-named) but I freaked out thinking how much he would be freaked receiving it...i know i would be if a friend of mine decided to send me something similar out of the blue, one fine evening.

Brighter Than Sunshine.

So since my iPod happens to be plugged into the speakers ,and since I love Steve Jobs, especially for inventing amazing feature called Shuffle playlist, which surprisingly plays all my favorite songs one after the other, and "Brighter than Sunshine" by Aqualung happens to be playing, I wonder. Is love really brighter than sunshine?
No wonder my sister used to always wear shades on her dates. Okay, now I know that was sad, but whatever.
The thing I remember when I was in love like a year back was that most of my days were gloomy and anything but bright. When you happen to be in love with a guy who doesn't love you back, guess that's what happens. Brighter than sunshine, not so much.
Oh well, so where was I?
Yeah, love.
I am not all that too fond of the element "LOVE" since every time it crosses paths with me, either I don't reciprocate to it or it does not co-operate with me...Karma on the other hand is my god-child and listens to me well!
Like for now, I totally know this guy has this major, major thing for me, but I don't...AT ALL!
I on the other hand like someone else...a crazy lot! plus, Lee Minho, too!
At time I feel like the life I live is so similar to that of Mia from the princess diaries, minus the tiara. She liked a guy, a guy liked her back and had an amazing best friend. She was lucky that the guy she loved secretly loved her back...how I wish though!
Oh, I don't have Mia's fat orange cat either :p
But I do have Meryl :p
But anyways, Brighter than sunshine or not, i don't mind not being that in love, at the moment. It's too much work(even though, secretly i wanna work towards it) and it'll happen when it has too...hell, I ain't complaining. Not one bit :p

I love this picture for some reason...really fits my mood!

Trouble!

You know something's wrong when your heart keeps beating like crazy, you smile for no reason listening to the "I Belong to You" By MBLAQ and almost wanna cry...oh, wait, am *I* in Love?
I.HAVE.NO.CLUE!
I feel like that girl from the Clueless, less prettier though!!
Damn, these feeling!!!

The Crush Affair.

The last week I was so busy that I couldn't come up with anytime to write. I happened to be writing more things so as to keep me "Unblocked", yet I had no time to sit with my laptop and pen down my thoughts on my blog. Well now that I do, lets get to it.
I happened to have a huge crush on this guitarist, who is really cute and all, a very long time back. He was one of those first guys I ever had a proper crush on, in the first place. But, at the moment he happens to play in my brother's band and well things happen to be getting a little weird. At least I think so. Or I may simply be reading too much(not the first time).
But there are certain rules to how a crush should go on about:

Rule Number 1: Anonymity.
You crush, until and unless you're in LOVE with the person and you cant stand to be apart from him, should never get a wind of the fact that you have a crush on him/her. The moment he/she gets to know, things become weird and you are never able to face him, even though you might be friends.
(Worse case scenario was the fact when I was crushing on this really good friend of mine and this other friend of mine told him, cause she thought he liked me, romantically. It turned out he didn't and since then he and I can't share a conversation without it getting weird! :|)

Rule Number 2: Be cool around your Crush.
I know it's crazy difficult to be around your crush without your heart beating 120 km/hr and your heart skipping a beat and your face getting flushed, trust me, I HAVE BEEN THERE. But it's equally important for a person to keep their cool around their object of affection. It's been observed that if you're hyper, loud and crave for attention, the exact opposite happens. The guy/girl thinks you're an attention seeker and tends to ignore you. But when you ignore the person, keep your cool, give him the heave ho and behave with him the same way you treat the other, trust me, he will come back and talk to you. I'm speaking from experience. So all the girls reading this and crushing on cute guitarists playing in their brother's or neighbor's band, it's about time you ignore him and talk to the guy beside him, even though you might be dying to get a glimpse of that smile.

Rule Number 3: DON'T BE A STALKER.
Men and Women hate a nagging person, who questions them about everything. Similarly, they freak when they get wind of the fact that someone keeps a track of who they're with when and what they have been upto(mind you, exceptions are always there). Want to know what your crush keeps doing. Hire a spy. Kidding. Make friends with someone around him, someone trustworthy(never your brother, coz he will not keep any secret in his stomach) and someone who wont gush over to him how you keep asking questions about him. Stalk, but vicariously and discreetly.

Rule Number 4: Never ever SUGGEST anything to your crush.
The moment you have a crush on someone, the first thing that comes to your mind is how to get his/her attention. And when you finally get his/her attention, it's time to stop getting greedy. In most of the cases, especially in men, the guy retreats the moment he gets wind of your crush. And if you start suggesting stuff like, "oh, so you like paintings? Cool! Lets totally go to this art gallery together!" or "Okay, so, there's this band performing and all, so should we go together?" The guy/girl, if you haven't known them from before, will suddenly realize something is wrong or you're simply loony. Oh, well, once you have developed a crush, you have to take the pain.

Rule Number 5 : When your Crush behaves weirdly and too cosy, it's about time you make a run for it.
I know, I go completely against what I have been saying all this while, but it's simple. A crush is someone who you admire from afar. You look at him and go, "How I wish I could be with him/her?" not "I wanna be with him." The latter is for the person you love/like. A crush is somewhat an eye-candy and the person, at times, varies and changes. You could have a crush on someone for a year or six people in a year. But the problem is, the moment your crush starts behaving weirdly, you start reading more into it and mess it all up, hoping he likes you, when he might just be playing around. Get to know the guy, become friends with him and then if you still feel the same way; then as i say, GO FOR IT!

So, the other day I happen to be making a list called, "Things I Want In My Future/Imaginary Boyfriend" and the saddest part was that only 15 out of the 35 things happen to match with the cute(actually not-so-cute-anymore since now he has weird facial hair which makes him look like Mr. Tumnus from the Chronicles of Narnia movies) guitarist guy I used to have a crush on, once upon a time. But surprisingly 29 out of 35 things matched with this other guy, who's been on my mind for quite sometime now. It's strange how it did, cause I know this other guy for a relatively less time(4-5 months to be precise) and I like most of the things about him. He likes CATS...need I say more?

I happen to love both Cats and Dogs....but any man who loves cats is plain sexy...Kim Heechul, tops the list :p

Unblocked.

So after all the raging and the screaming and from breaking random things in my room, I can proudly say, I AM FINALLY BACK!
Seems weird doesn't it, how I was around yet, I seemed lost. Yes, the side-effects of a bad, bad creative block. Or, as my mum put it, I was just being too lazy to write...or do anything for that matter.
Well the thing that got me back to writing was the last day of Durga Pujo, when I had come back home really early(mind you when I say early, I mean early) and found the house all to myself. Yes, three floors of my Salt Lake house all to myself. So, instead of going into Ninja mode, which I normally do when I'm alone at home, I took out my untuned guitar and started to play Wish You Were Here, for obvious reasons. I happened to be missing my Father. A lot.
Then out of nowhere, I get this weird idea and I start writing, and voila, I could write again *full blown concerto in the background*
I should have written earlier but I was feeling immensely lazy the last two days so yeah, now that I feel slightly un-lazy I'm back to writing. Hopefully this time the block wont be back. Soon.
Now, got to go back to solving verbal logic again.

....and drooling over the sixteen year old Jo Youngmin.

I cannot believe HE is sixteen....I feel SO old =(

When the best friend leaves.

Those times when you seem extremely happy and nothing can go wrong...where you meet new people and make immediate friends over Inu Yasha and Star Wars(me being a star wars nerd)....those times when you're at bliss and the world seems like a better place. Two hours later the world comes crashing at your feet.
The realization that my best friend happens to be leaving for college in 31 hours. To Bristol, freaking, England! Not a nice feeling.
My best friend and I are one of those people who have spent 4 hours at CCD and not remembered which topic we had actually started talking with. Its one of those things. She being a vital part of my life.
I met her 3 years and 3 months ago, on the first day of tenth grade, when I had just moved to my new school, all anxious and scared. Her first question to me, instead of welcoming me was, "Why the heck did you join our school? THIS school?" I think it was love at first sight, now that I think about it :p
Then slowly as time passed, we realized how interesting the latter were and we bonded. I intended to not make any friends and pass away those high school years in seclusion and solitude, but she changed my life. From convincing her to get together with her now boyfriend(me being the biggest A+T=<3 fan), to choosing clothes for her and her telling me how to go on with life, I realized how incomplete my life would have been if I'd have never joined the school. I would have missed out on meeting the most amazing human being on planet Earth.
So, tonight, the eve of the night on which she leaves, i'm left with tears in my eyes, recalling the memories I shared with her, memories which'll help me be happy. Even though text messaging, whatsapp-ing, facebooking and tweeting and calling are present, there are certain things which only a person in her physical self can contrubute to.
I will miss her, nonetheless, but I also wish the best of luck in life as she goes away, from home, from her family and me, of course :p, to actualize her dreams. Not only it is difficult for me, I can simply imagine how difficult it is for her to leave. But Vampire-guy awaits there :p
Anyways, I would like to end this by saying, Aankhi, I will miss you. And I love you....a LOT :)
Come back soooooon!!!

Children's Day 2009:

Those amazing perfect yet random Self-cams:

Children's Day 2010:

More of School Farewell:

Our Cool pose:

School Farewell:

At the cricket world cup Final:

At the IPL match at Edens:

....and with this We Always Look Perfect Together!
Will miss her loads :)